Fears

The more numb I am, the less pain I feel
It seems like time isn't willing to help me heal,
Heal from the pain and hurt stirring inside,
The scars that I try to hide,
I'm so tired, I just don't have that fight!

I saw myself collapse while watching my sister,
She woke up, found me, blood everywhere, this time no blisters,
I felt her screams and tears burning through me,
Even though she's so little, it feels like she's the only one who knows me.
I can't leave her,
Fuck!, what the hell is wrong with me?!
I'm tryna suppress these feelings,
My heart and soul is what he's stealing,
I forgot it's the devil that's dealing.

I find myself getting numb almost everyday,
I'm scared to wake up and find out my vision made it's way,
For now “help” is all I can say...