The struggle is real

I lay in the dark cold sand
Look at the curses done with my hands
I cant erase all that ive done
Find inner peace i dont believe there is none.
You want to see a tear
Hope ill have feeling of peace or of fear
Rage building up somewhere deep with in
Nothing destroys me then when memories flood me again
Why should i fear anything i see
Nothing can do more damage to i than me
Pyschatrist says its ok take this pill
Doesnt stop it just cant react to how i feel
I watch you sway. Hanging some loose
Around my kneck again old noose
I stand staring at the end of the ledge
Then again im stuck remembering my pledge
Put it up til i can handle my thoughts no more
Once again i hang my head
I no longer care to hear what my mind has said