My masked face

How can you blame me
For showing up to costumed parties
Hiding my disappointment and grief
over you with masked face?
I'm facing you in the opposite
 side of the room, in the gloom,
Throwing upside down smiles at you
With opposing conversations
Directed your way
Wicked glares, snares, and
stares a devil would give
Blowing them up your way, tenfold
One false step too close to me,
I'll make an outrageous scene of anger
You'll never forget
You better not...
I'm your sudductress of hate now
Living with a dangerous kind of grief
Your plastered face of innocence
Is unaware of
I take this drink and better yet,
That one too
To drown out my regret at having loved
Your deceiving temptations
Spilling them onto mansion party floors
Mocking your pristine image
From a distance, whispering hateful melodies about you to everyone
I'm in too much of a drunkin down stupor to say your name in your face
With fierce boldness
That you'll be ashamed of
What's the matter
Nobody's your friend here?