We Are No More

Who would've thought you of all people would leave.
Who would've thought I would never get to talk to you like old times.
Is your anger and bitterness so large you can't even see me anymore.
I thought that if I gave you time let you simmer down a bit it would help instead it seems you are now content in your new world.
A world where I have been replaced.
We were inseparable.
And now we can't even look at each other the same.
Was this truly all my doing in the end did I really break this bond that was ment to be "unbreakable"?
You now berate me and call me a child and treat me like a child all because you have your own children and view yourself so high and mighty cause you see yourself as an adult.
You say you hold no grudge but I know, I know you ignore my messages now.
Before it's all you wanted was for me to talk to you.
Yet now I'm talking and you aren't even listening.
I have no excuses for you none.
I admitted I was wrong I told you why I did what I did.
You still look at me like I'm a worthless piece of shit.
You who was supposed to have my back.
You who promised until the day we died that no matter how far into the darkness I went you would be there to help me back up and vis versa.
You never reached out to me not once for help.
You left me empty realizing it was all fake.
Parabatai....what a meaningless thing that symbol is.
I'll wear it with honor cause the woman I got it with still means something to me.
But you are not that woman anymore.
She's gone like ashes in the flames.
I will mourn her forever.
And you, I will have a slow burning hatred for you because whoever you are you took my parabatai away.