chrysanthemum

you’ve all left
gone one by one  
i wept because i slept
trying to avoid coming undone  
dying inside just for fun  
never to fill the bottomless void  
headed where i’ll never see the sun  
this is my own choice  
besides there’s nowhere left to run or hide  
the last ride begins i rejoice before i’ve begun to die  
here’s a one way ticket to my own demise  
i reside on this throne of bones all alone  
hiding from my sins i’ve never atoned  
shining so bright, my crimson covers blown  
cast your stone, with all your might  
since you’ve never known the life i chose  
how to maneuver through the night  
you have no home to call your own  
i will never dare to pretend to care  
that you were ever my friends  
you were never there to make amends  
my kingdom built on deceit & despair  
it’s just a means to an end  
crumbling cause the burdens too heavy to bare  
now i’m standing there with letters i’ll never send  
what am i to do, i tend to get confused  
and consumed at the thought of losing you  
i never intend to transcend the lines of wrong and right  
spine crippled with a chill of fright  
i recommend that you do not attend  
you will die here because of me again  
 tonight all bones that bend will break in spite  
no matter how strong or the will to fight  
you descend into a purgatory state  
 that there’s no coming back from  
all that remains beside your grave  
is a blood stained chrysanthemum