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I Don't
I don’t want you back
I don’t want your trust
I don’t want you to be near me
I don’t want to go to the past
I don’t trust myself
I don’t want you around me
I don’t want this to spread
I don’t want to feel
I don’t want this
I don’t like this
I don’t like feelings that are wrapped around me
I don’t like to feel Anger.
Broken.
Forgotten.
Lost.
I don’t want to list the other feelings
I don’t like to fake happiness
I just don’t want to overthink
I don’t like panic
I don’t like fear
I don’t like the past
I don’t want to see your face
I don’t like to remember
I don’t like to cry
I don’t cry, but the inside of me does
I don’t like the memories that haunt me
I don’t like how no one understands
I don’t want, I don’t like, I just don’t!
I don’t want your trust
I don’t want you to be near me
I don’t want to go to the past
I don’t trust myself
I don’t want you around me
I don’t want this to spread
I don’t want to feel
I don’t want this
I don’t like this
I don’t like feelings that are wrapped around me
I don’t like to feel Anger.
Broken.
Forgotten.
Lost.
I don’t want to list the other feelings
I don’t like to fake happiness
I just don’t want to overthink
I don’t like panic
I don’t like fear
I don’t like the past
I don’t want to see your face
I don’t like to remember
I don’t like to cry
I don’t cry, but the inside of me does
I don’t like the memories that haunt me
I don’t like how no one understands
I don’t want, I don’t like, I just don’t!
Published 5th Jun 2019
Author's Note
when my school found out about my self harming, i stopped talking to my best friend and their friends. when first started to retalk to my best friend, their friend kept trying to become my friend and i didn't want to be around them because of everything that had happened. ***not trying to promote self harm in any way shape or form, this is just an outlet for me***
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5th Jun 2019 3:23pm
Relatable in many ways for me.
My step daughter (i still call her that, though her Mom and me are through) used to cut herself in school (3rd grade) and later we found out if was her Bi-Polar meds causing it.
I self harm, as well, but it's a CONTROL thing for me and probably related to my having schizophrenia.
My stepson, also, sometimes would self-harm but for him it is called stemming as he is autistic.
I know the feeling of wanting to be isolated especially when family and friends find out.
Keep writing.........It helps -- it's why i first got into poetry
My step daughter (i still call her that, though her Mom and me are through) used to cut herself in school (3rd grade) and later we found out if was her Bi-Polar meds causing it.
I self harm, as well, but it's a CONTROL thing for me and probably related to my having schizophrenia.
My stepson, also, sometimes would self-harm but for him it is called stemming as he is autistic.
I know the feeling of wanting to be isolated especially when family and friends find out.
Keep writing.........It helps -- it's why i first got into poetry
5th Jun 2019 6:27pm
I am glad that you can relate to this poem in different ways.
Everyone has a story of their own and i know it can be hard to share when one has so many feelings trapped inside.
thank you for the encouragement :)
Everyone has a story of their own and i know it can be hard to share when one has so many feelings trapped inside.
thank you for the encouragement :)
6th Jun 2019 9:26am
You’re way too close to my heart right now, tugging every string. I so related to this. I love it. Great ink! ❤️
6th Jun 2019 12:04pm
Aww! Thank you :)
im so glad that you can relate to this poem, i like to reach out to people who have different stories to tell
im so glad that you can relate to this poem, i like to reach out to people who have different stories to tell
