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i thank you for taking the time to read i appreciate the feed back and yes it is rare its like over time we as people forgot what it means to have a deep heart of honesty truth and trust

" The deepness within the depth."  The title pretty much sums up my response. The energy from the vibrations that this puts off from your candor is so much that a breeze can almost be felt. How can I put this without sounding arrogant or pompous or like im better than everyone else because God knows that, that I know I am not. However when it comes to being sociable and open with honest expression and the ability and willingness to do so for me personally has become stunted. I've recognized over time how my spiritual, psychological, emotional and even my physical growth and development isn't flourishing to it's potential due to lack of nourishment that through companionship and self-expression that we share with one another provides. I've always been somewhat of an introvert but I'm always very observant of my surroundings especially of  people and their vibes and behaviors and I almost have to try to appear as if I'm not paying attention to anything cuz my situational awareness is ridiculous with what I hear and notice inadvertently but as for me it seems in my experience sadly that people have become more superficial and shallow and selfish and narcissistic and conniving being driven somehow without purpose or direction on a loveless journey to where and for what, leaving me at times with the inability or desire to even attempt to engage in small talk with a simple conversation about the weather or current events because of people's lack of awareness and disinterest to listen without veering off on a tangent. People act as though proper introductions are bothersome even pre-covid handshakes have seem to becoming awkward with eye contact becoming offensive and perceived as aggression. My roots are many that run deep although If I was a tree I would be full of dead limbs that would pose a dangerous threat to anyone that gets too close. Thanks for sharing this. We may be strangers and I may not be worthy of hearing this here what you have written, but even so he it this is definitely worthy of being heard. Only in the most vulnerable state can growth be sustained. For a seedling to sprout and for a bud to bloom it must remain unshielded and open to receive what the environment provides and if and when the time comes then the flower and the fruit will be the end result that is returned. The ability to be intimate and open should come naturally not even giving it a second thought. By overthinking things and making it hard to do so we can become psychologically stagnant creating  spiritual toxicity. The rawness the realness the pureness from this is refreshing like a breath of fresh air.