Existentium

I exist but Im not alive
please dont disassociate
I feel myself asphyxiate
a lack of ember
no kernel of light
no wind to start the flame
Im dying to know my fate

the air is cut
the lights are out
all around is an empty house
the house inside my heart

I slip past time
into a different skin
I want to do more than exist
feeling love, lust, and sin
saving grace now
through the race of pain
if I feel it on my skin
maybe if I try hard enough
I'll feel it somewhere else
in the place where I used to love

the air is cut
the lights are out
all around is an empty house
the house inside my heart
and if I open my mouth
I cannot shout
no words to describe the ache
please don't disassociate
I feel myself asphyxiate