Judas' Kiss

So, tell me about you & this girl.    
Well, you know it was like  
Passion coming at you with a gun in one hand    
And a hatchet in the other.    
I was a bug trapped in amber.    
It was intense,    
A love hot like burning tires at night    
And twice as bright.    
Until we gave into the shadows of the rain    
And when I let her go, I thought    
You’ll be in my heaven.        
Even now it is still nice to remember    
Those moments that linger      
And believe the best as long as    
It is possible to believe the best.    
Love sure does have a way of making you humble.            
Without her I feel like I’m just    
Living in the dark and the shade,    
A shuttered life alone with hope    
That there will be petals on the path    
Back to her someday.    
Do I still love her?
I smile, guilty as Judas’ kiss.