Consequence

This is what I get,
This is all the pain I get,
For playing like a sweetly smiling devil.

I had you in my trap,
And you know I abused that.
A little toy in which my fantasies could revel.

It’s just what I deserve,
To be left all alone,
Cry, can’t move, attached to what I lost.

He’ll flirt with her (NOT ME),
I’ll go crazy, you will see.
With jealousy now I will pay his cost.

The lump is in my heart,
It pains, my rage can’t budge,
And I couldn’t stop my mind from being so cruel.

Now of course I’d take it back.
But that’s also just a lie.
I will never be free, I ended up the fool.

Maybe someday I won’t fantasize,
Learn just how to use my eyes.
Someday, someday soon, it will go right.

Oh, I can see it now.
I’ll pour you all my thoughts,
Pure from the black core, by quiet night.

I’ll tell you what I couldn’t.
I hope there’s still the chance.
Or are you dead? I’ve watched you slip away,

Becoming just like them.
But I’ll save you in my home –
And mold you in my selfish dream for just one day.

So pure, and yet such greed.
I’m sure somewhere they meet.
Two tales in one that hardly intertwine.

Possession takes control.
I was on such a roll!
Some days I knew tomorrow you’d be mine.

But then tomorrow always changed,
As my mind sucked it away.
It’s the never-ending cycle I know so well.

Though the chance’ll come back again,
Hard to believe in it when
That worry-inflicting low has me under its spell.

And now that daydreams fail to soothe,
And I burn to feel the truth,
You’re a million miles away and I’m too late.

And though they’re temporary things,
And the pendulum eventually swings,
I’m stuck in tension, I’m powerless – and I wait.

03/29/05