Backwards slow(ly)

All day I felt like it, You know when You almost feel like
Vomiting nothing?
And then on into my afternoon, I felt like it.
Then in the evening came the tears but still no bile
No sulfuric acid
No release.

I nearly saw You in life
almost every postmortem
of affection

amidst my tears I thought,
“ HELL YEAH …..i’m a slow return (to)
back
back
back
backwards, me”

Last night You felt me distancing myself from You
From us.

Yes

Today it is more so
only stronger and with emotion
with tears
and pretend vomit

Early to bed
Early disguise
No more said
No surprise

No more

Yeah,
I am feeling distant and dead today.
Must be Mercury Retrograde.