Puzzled!!!

Puzzled!  
As I examine the map of my life  
I try to place the pieces back together  
Go back and take back...
Time wasted
Love misplaced  
Mind scrabbled
Left several times for being too loving!  
Mistreated for being too caring!!!
U too good of a Woman!!!  
Damn!!
That never seems real.  
Everytime  
Every damn time...
Love puzzles me!!  
 
Now I have pieces of me under reconstruction.
Scattered  
Shattered  
The best pieces of me  
Broken and ripped into a thousand pieces!!  
 
Now when I look at the women in the mirror....
 
I see a beautiful masterpiece with pieces ripped from the inside of me..  
 
Like a perfect day without the sun...just rain!!  
 
Where do u find the puzzle pieces?  
When the masterpiece can't see the beauty that lies from within!!  
 
Hands shaking from the thought of putting the pieces back together for more disappointment later!!
 
I rather stay broken!!  
But there is too much darkness in this place!!