Mirrors

I'm finding it hard to say what's wrong but something is
Maybe it's me, maybe I'm just wrong about everything
I could just be a fool wandering through wonderland
Seeking Alice for answers to the questions haunting me
But everywhere seems to have been abandoned by living things
Now the air is filled with vaporous memories where people used to be
The loneliness they left behind is a warm blanket on a cold day in Hell
Frozen over after I lost my soul wishing God would just leave me the fuck alone
And then he granted my wish and I was alone and I am alone and alone and alone
In a vacuum where it's so hard to breathe between the tears
Spending all my time reflecting on my life gazing into a hallway of mirrors
Always looking back, why can't I turn them around to look into the future
Can my luck get any worse if I shatter every silver painted pain
Dad was right, there's never been anyone with as much bad luck as me
I wonder, can he see me from Heaven? Has he asked God why he did this to me?
Isn't there just one soul that needs to escape from a similar fate?
Am I the only one in my piece of empty space?
How many bits have been walled off, just inches apart yet unaware
That just beyond the veil another soul like me weeps for eternity
Cursed to exist without so much as a memory of true love to cling to
But no, I am alone, no one could live this long longing for a heartbeat
To break the silence that breaks my heart to be the only beat gone unheard
Afraid to call out in the darkness because silence will prove there's no one there
Not even the hope of a response can overcome the fear of nothing
What if? What if? What if... someone is there, hoping for another to be brave
Brave enough to take a chance... Maybe this is Hell after all. Little black boxes
Millions of little black boxes where everyone cowers in eternal silence

Do I dare break the mirror, shattering the illusion of loneliness?