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Jealous Jerk
Am I out of sorts and cross because she's flown
or just petulant and feeling sorry left on my own?
I know you said you were going to have lunch
an 'ex' on neutral ground is safe; but I had a hunch
you would spend some more time together
mutual shared history and once your lover
back to yours for dinner and a film on the box
a shared sofa, an arm to cosy into .... got to stop
thinking about what you do; it is your life!
and yes I know that once you were his wife
maybe it's the thoughts crashing round my head
that your cosy dinner led you to share your bed
I know you said you didn't want that at the end of the day
but the guy is still just a man and still loves you that way
and now you have left to go on your holidays; long overdue
to sit by the beach, have fun with friends or take in the view
you left early in the morning with a hurriedly phoned farewell
I already regret my jealousy and doubt as you can tell
But all said and done I am just a man smitten by you
left bereft now you have gone saying 'miss you too'
feeling foolish for caring, not wanting you hurt
surprising eye-opener; Never saw myself as a jealous jerk.
or just petulant and feeling sorry left on my own?
I know you said you were going to have lunch
an 'ex' on neutral ground is safe; but I had a hunch
you would spend some more time together
mutual shared history and once your lover
back to yours for dinner and a film on the box
a shared sofa, an arm to cosy into .... got to stop
thinking about what you do; it is your life!
and yes I know that once you were his wife
maybe it's the thoughts crashing round my head
that your cosy dinner led you to share your bed
I know you said you didn't want that at the end of the day
but the guy is still just a man and still loves you that way
and now you have left to go on your holidays; long overdue
to sit by the beach, have fun with friends or take in the view
you left early in the morning with a hurriedly phoned farewell
I already regret my jealousy and doubt as you can tell
But all said and done I am just a man smitten by you
left bereft now you have gone saying 'miss you too'
feeling foolish for caring, not wanting you hurt
surprising eye-opener; Never saw myself as a jealous jerk.
Published 21st Feb 2019
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Emotions catch you out sometimes
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21st Feb 2019 1:32pm
you know David God himself is fiercely jealous
it's a force greater than us like fire so hard to control...
I feel for you nothing burns more...
great write...
love Brenda ❤
it's a force greater than us like fire so hard to control...
I feel for you nothing burns more...
great write...
love Brenda ❤
21st Feb 2019 1:38pm
Thank you for feeling this write dearest Brenda. I know what she has been through to extricate herself and finally break free and I didn't want her hurt …. again! The acknowledgement that I was actually also jealous came as a total surprise. Dxx
21st Feb 2019 1:58pm
If she was going to be romantic with him she would have never told you they were meeting.
21st Feb 2019 5:53pm
No, in her case, she still would have. We have an open relationship and her occasional excursions with other women and men I get to hear in glorious technicolour! If you read some of my poetry you will recognise a little of my love for her and my concern for some of her more extreme antics.
