Invisible

alone in a crowd...
I’m here but you don’t see me,
 I scream but you don’t hear me,
I’m here in front of you but you’re completely unaware....
what is worse?
For people to point and stare or never notice you anywhere??
Smile in front of my face but so out of place,
the sadness in my eyes nothing can erase......
no matter what I do I just don’t belong,
yet still so wrapped up in tagging along...
content look on my face yet I’m dying inside.
.no one to talk too.
. I just want to hide what do I do, where do I go
 I want to go home but nobody’s there.
. I want to run away but it would be the same anywhere....
stranger in my own town.... a ghost in my own home....
prisoner of my mind ...victim of my pain.
I’m afraid of everything. broken in every way....
each day blurs together no different than the last.
when will I be free from the shackles of my past.
when will life begin when will this facade end.
. I thought grownups didn’t play pretend