into the mind of a "madman"

   
     
     
     
    make light of what you may; life is an onion with many layers; how many ppl died today?; ok; why are mass shootings taking place?      
     
     
    one minute everything's fine; though things chip away; why am I pessimistic? why must I utter things like bitch? because there's a chaotic ripple underneath the not so well hidden surface....    
     
     
    from self assured, to panic in a matter of minutes; that's the "hellish" world we live in; endless cliche quotes like "don't be a worrier, be a warrior"..    
     
     
    how many people are going to die this year? what was the cause? there's a sickness; I admit my brain is sick; I admit I somewhat wish I am some where on that list....