Control

The pounding intensifies
I can feel my temperature rising
Palms have started to sweat
It becomes harder to breath
In this moment
What do I do?
I’m frozen still
My mind is racing
Every nerve standing on end.
The smell of your skin
You are so close
Could you feel it too?
The magnatizm between us
The toxic space
So bad for each other
And yet...
The demons in me start to grow restless
Darkness consuming me
Visions of my hands on you
Your screams and cries
My hands gliding over every inch of you
You shutter
Good...
You finally give into the feeling
You tried so hard to fight it
The feeling is fear
Isn’t that right?
Your heart is racing
You scream out my name
You hold on clinching my skin
Every second slows until time is still
You shake and tremble
What now?
What will you do?
All we indulged in was lust
The pure, raw, uncensored kind of lust.
You feel uneasy
You let yourself get lost in me
You wanted to be in charge of feelings
But you don’t just lust for me
No matter how small the feeling
Love instead of lust grows there
I have the control.