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Heart shaped box

I thought i loved you, so i cut away pieces of myself.
I made myself smaller, just so you could stand taller.
I cut away pieces of myself so that i'd fit into your heart shaped box.

You were always in control, no discussions, no long talks.
You told me I should be thinner, and for some reason I listened.
I skipped a few meals, never ate dinner.

You told me you didn't want your friends knowing of me,
You told me that I was thin, but not thin enough.
On my birthday, you gave me makeup.

Keep your chin up, you used to say.
When you don't, you have a chubby face.
You told me that you loved me;
But I didn't know you were toxic, it was too late.

I started to diminish, I was just a bag of bones.
But that was okay, as long as I fit into your heart shaped dome.
You told me you loved me, and i used to get so warm.
But now, I was just so cold.

I thought we loved each other, So i cut away pieces of myself for you.
I taped myself together with bandages and paper mache glue.
But alas, You just weren't you.
I was always making compromises, You asked me to Jump, And I'd say how high.

I'm glad you're gone, because I haven't cut away anymore pieces.
I think I'll take my odds and stick with my pieces.
For they are a part of me, And I them.

I don't belong in a heart shaped box,
And I now know that you were wrong, all along.
My soul is free.
Enough of your fucking heart shaped box.