Fear-Crawler

Fear, despair and cry
It's never gonna be right,
Falling from step to step
Still wanting to jump,
Through my own self
But I'm kept inside my own head
Fighting for my own life
Trusting my own lies

Tell my why do i have to do this?
I'm fighting myself until the mornings
Keep dreaming about everything i want
And still not doing whatever i love.

When I'm alone I'm a wreck
And I love it don't I?
'Cuz when she is with us
I'm not even my own mind
Running from the mistakes
That i kept on pushing
Just so i can hold
Something that she pushed in.

So i will tell you why you have to,
In the night when I'm the only one with you
Your dreams are shattered to little pieces
And you are gonna cut yourself with them!

You think that just because,
You have somebody beside you
No one s gonna notice
Your other side too?
And when they find it inside
Somebody will cut that out
Showing all around,
What she really did now.

It s my business, not for anybody else
But you have other people
If they don't understand, they are not friends
But you are not beautiful
In my eyes we sparkle in our shells
But that s not the real you
I will kill you and get back my own self.

Now I'm here alone again
But thankfully without my head
Instead I'm in her mind
Filling the lonely night.
The fear has gone away
And i feel right
I just want to lay down
And laugh with this lie.