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a small Cut
It will be only a small Cut
I still can't sleep and I don't feel good and it's probably because I haven't slept for now going on 31 hrs
such a vicious circle and I am worried about her.
I stare at the monitor and then the sleeping unit on the floor
I stare and I’m still thinking of her final words to me ----
then she went to sleep
And speaking of sleep,
did I mention I haven’t yet?
I AM CAPABLE OF SLEEPLESSNESS FOR 72
but it is not good for me to be around others.
I cried twice today.
I tried to cry myself to sleep
now I am considering
A small cut
Just enough so the red feels warm
Against my pillow and then I will lay in it
And Feel
What evidently I did not when
She was hurting.
5th August 2013 10:19pm
I still can't sleep and I don't feel good and it's probably because I haven't slept for now going on 31 hrs
such a vicious circle and I am worried about her.
I stare at the monitor and then the sleeping unit on the floor
I stare and I’m still thinking of her final words to me ----
then she went to sleep
And speaking of sleep,
did I mention I haven’t yet?
I AM CAPABLE OF SLEEPLESSNESS FOR 72
but it is not good for me to be around others.
I cried twice today.
I tried to cry myself to sleep
now I am considering
A small cut
Just enough so the red feels warm
Against my pillow and then I will lay in it
And Feel
What evidently I did not when
She was hurting.
5th August 2013 10:19pm
Published 7th Jan 2019
Author's Note
an old memory. . .
I still think of her, every now and then, and how she often sent my sensitive self into an emotional blender ---- I loved her but she was not good for me..............
I still think of her, every now and then, and how she often sent my sensitive self into an emotional blender ---- I loved her but she was not good for me..............
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Anonymous
7th Jan 2019 6:16pm
I'm sobbing. This write is so relatable. I feel your pain in every word.
7th Jan 2019 7:53pm
sometimes even the memory
causes my face to get wet.
appreciate You read and share
and relatable pain
causes my face to get wet.
appreciate You read and share
and relatable pain
Anonymous
- Edited 7th May 2019 00:46am
7th Jan 2019 7:42pm
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When the memory involves someone
who we loved deeply
it's difficult not to fall into the abyss
of emotion
appreciate the RL add
Scott (the EgoEffect)
who we loved deeply
it's difficult not to fall into the abyss
of emotion
appreciate the RL add
Scott (the EgoEffect)
Anonymous
7th Jan 2019 10:54pm
Tallen,
Feelin' you, brother.
What a torturous write.
Powerful.
Here for you, my friend.
MZ.
Feelin' you, brother.
What a torturous write.
Powerful.
Here for you, my friend.
MZ.
7th Jan 2019 11:01pm
thank You Brother
and thank You for the offer
but I still have six toenails left
and so,
I'm good.
and thank You for the offer
but I still have six toenails left
and so,
I'm good.
