Happy meeting...Broken ending

Well today...me and friend of a long time actually decided to spend time together...catch up, window shop and even if we did dance around the question, well I tried hard to avoid the elephant in the room but he just kept on hitting hard...he said, " so...this may be out of the ordinary and even if we might have left off at an sour note...but for the time were together I dont see you texting back and fourth with anyone or even smile when you look at your phone...
I cut him off, which was rude I admit and I said, " you were always famous for beating around the bush, please get straight to the point".
He said " Are you with anyone"?...
I said " you should know... from the last time love".
He looked and said " still love the breath of independence"...
I said " still trying to gain redemption for our messed up love"?
He said " I know, you don't give out second chances...but I just want you to know...I...never meant to hurt you like that...for years I had guilt about how everything...
I cut him off again and say " love, there's no need to apologize nor look for forgiveness, you wanted something different and sometimes in our lives, our taste to have love, freedom, sex, emotions etc....will end up changing...weather your younger or older you need time to live and explore...so stop saying sorry...your sorries there meaningful and the past it will remain the same even if you want to change it but right now were in the present, i don't want you to live with guilt for something that was bound to happen...if we were meant to be then we are and if were not we still have friendship".
He looked at me and laughed...I laughed with him...
Our time was coming to an end...realizing that when we got to his car we were holding hands like the old times...I think we both were taken a back...so we looked at each other as if it was the last time...smiles of awkwardness was exchanged, then I decided...to give him a kiss...a kiss saying I wish we had longer but it time to let the past die...during that kiss our hands let go and he held me as if he didn't want to say goodbye and if any further, the next morning we would wake up with regret...so I stopped him...he looked and said " why does does this have to be soo bittersweet...dammit!, Please just...
I put my finger on his lips to shh him...holding back the tears...put my forehead to his, eyes closed...even if I'm hurting the same...sometimes you just have to let the people you love go...
I look at him, those beautiful, piercing deep blue eyes, tears running down his face, hearts may have been healed but still broken at this last meet...
I told him...
"Even when we change my heart for you will still be the same, beat the same and want you the same...but for now...just let me go...don't hold on to want will increase your guilt..."
He slowly let me go...
I told him to" take care, be careful"...tears still held back...
He looked at me and said "always and also...I still love you"...
Then he was gone...but those last words...will always, forever stick with me until we meet again...even if we still have change.