Pain of Anger

I feel an anger inside my heart
A new one that I can't explain
The natural order confuses me
Leaving no explanation for the pain
 
The hurt rolling around in my head
Tearing through the fabric of my mind
Leaving unseen wounds deep inside
Laying waste to everything behind
 
My brother you could help me see the light
In this chapter of my wasted youth
Teach me another life lesson
Because you were the purest truth
 
I am left here to battle this loneliness
Killing myself cause I could've eased his
I never knew this was what you meant
I never felt what true loneliness is
 
Till now I didn't understand
brother please hear me up there
I didn't know what you meant
When you said no one would care
 
Oh how right you actually were
You would've reveled in the mess
That so many made trying to prove
They loved you and were in distress
 
I don't know how to speak to them
How do I let them go on
Their lies sting in my heart
An keep me awake till dawn
 
How do I honor you
When I can't speak to you
I can't feel your strength at all
Your guidance I need it's true
 
Help me brother you're the only one that can
The only one that knew all I had done
I fear without you here to lean on
It's me who will go with the setting sun