i very suddenly knew what i already knew: all at once and without doubts

i've crawled out of the edge of the earth
to make breakfast.
i've got big plans for my next life
which i'm going to be living early
while i'm still here
just in case


someone taught me a trick
some weeks ago:

imagine there is a snake curled in your sacrum.
a white snake of light.

fucking ridiculous.
a bright bit of matter peacefully floating-
nonsense and rainbows
fluff and fucking pigshit,
i mean, i'll smile but

clench your arse and draw the snake up your spine.


the earth is mostly nothing
sitting in an even bigger nothing
wondering why no one visits
ergo, i am mostly nothing

the snake i imagined was...
sinewy
dark
full of blind menace
a real world-eater
a nasty piece of work


clench your chest and draw the snake up your spine

the snake i think was laughing
why so shadowy?
you're greedy
its not a god fuckin dick child
you want all the colour
and it all cancels out-
never mind,
i will give you your knowledge,
god's child,
give you your desires

so
it reached its tongue lazily to the tip of my brain