Disappear

I can pretend you don't exist
I can pretend i don't
hear all the things you say
but that i pretend it doesn't hurt
doesn't make it hurt any less

Sometimes i wish that i could be
all you want me to be
and at other times
i hate myself for even
considering changing for you

Confusion wraps around me
and it doesn't let go
it makes the pain
hurt a lot more
it makes me wish
i could disappear
and end this torture once and for all

My heart breaks
whenever you open your mouth
(Please don't speak, i don't want to hurt anymore)
So i think you and i
(if there ever was such a thing)
both go our separate ways
'cause i just won't let you
keep hurting me this way