Submissions by Jacksylverwind (Gothic Madonna)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I write about everything i go through. Now, after writing a lot about 'angst' and 'darkness' i'm trying to find the perfect balance between darkness and light, depression and happiness.
DARK POEM
Published
16th Apr 2014 9:37pm
16th Apr 2014 9:37pm
Silver
Your words, they haunt
They lay beneath my pillow
Taunting me as i lay down
As i give into unconciousness
You'll never understand the struggle
The pain or the shame
I carry them both
I wrap them around my neck,
Silver turning crimson the minute i jump off this chair
So smile as i evaporate
As you watch me fade to black
Know you opened doors
That you paved the way
And i want you to laugh;
I want you to enjoy these knives digging deep into my core
They lay beneath my pillow
Taunting me as i lay down
As i give into unconciousness
You'll never understand the struggle
The pain or the shame
I carry them both
I wrap them around my neck,
Silver turning crimson the minute i jump off this chair
So smile as i evaporate
As you watch me fade to black
Know you opened doors
That you paved the way
And i want you to laugh;
I want you to enjoy these knives digging deep into my core
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ANGER POEM
Published
17th Jun 2013 6:23pm
17th Jun 2013 6:23pm
Pretending
Every angry word muttered leaves a wound deep within
In seconds you've broken through my fragile skin
I am left trembling, a bleeding man
I mistakenly thought you'd be the one to understand
I let myself be consumed by my grief
For my love was passionate but brief
And in the end i was so blind i didn't see
You were not who you pretended to be
No prayer will soothe my aching soul
No prayer will make these fragments whole
I've lost the very fabric of being
The backbone of this flesh and bloody thing
Leave it to me to trust a demon...
In seconds you've broken through my fragile skin
I am left trembling, a bleeding man
I mistakenly thought you'd be the one to understand
I let myself be consumed by my grief
For my love was passionate but brief
And in the end i was so blind i didn't see
You were not who you pretended to be
No prayer will soothe my aching soul
No prayer will make these fragments whole
I've lost the very fabric of being
The backbone of this flesh and bloody thing
Leave it to me to trust a demon...
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STORY POEM
Published
29th Nov 2012 2:40am
29th Nov 2012 2:40am
Undercurrent
I am falling
Diving into fantasy
Darkness embraces me,
Pulls me into myself
I don't need a lullaby;
I am already halfway there
You see, here's where it happens
Where the magic flows and nothing stands in its way
Here i am me
I am Alice, being chased by the Red Queen
I am skating;
Leaving lines on the ice
Everything is frozen beneath me
But i am warm
I am alive
It's in the air
The magic, the perfectness
It's all around me now;
Bathing the golden flowers
Bathing the clear green grass
There's nothing...
Diving into fantasy
Darkness embraces me,
Pulls me into myself
I don't need a lullaby;
I am already halfway there
You see, here's where it happens
Where the magic flows and nothing stands in its way
Here i am me
I am Alice, being chased by the Red Queen
I am skating;
Leaving lines on the ice
Everything is frozen beneath me
But i am warm
I am alive
It's in the air
The magic, the perfectness
It's all around me now;
Bathing the golden flowers
Bathing the clear green grass
There's nothing...
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SELF POEM
Published
7th Nov 2012 1:56pm
7th Nov 2012 1:56pm
Angels & Devils
I was an angel ‘till I fell from heaven
Was a devil ‘till I got cast out
I’m just a human now
Walking around like I’ve got nothing better to do
My heart was gold ‘till it melted into glass
And it was glass ‘till it got shattered to pieces
Now, I walk over them shards of glass
Trying my hardest not to cry
Life’s not forever, and neither is love
I got both and am just trying to hold on
I’m fighting to stay sane in a place void of care
I still wonder if I’m better off dead
All my memories are full of you
Heaven was good, but it...
Was a devil ‘till I got cast out
I’m just a human now
Walking around like I’ve got nothing better to do
My heart was gold ‘till it melted into glass
And it was glass ‘till it got shattered to pieces
Now, I walk over them shards of glass
Trying my hardest not to cry
Life’s not forever, and neither is love
I got both and am just trying to hold on
I’m fighting to stay sane in a place void of care
I still wonder if I’m better off dead
All my memories are full of you
Heaven was good, but it...
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LOVE POEM
Published
5th Nov 2012 10:09pm
5th Nov 2012 10:09pm
Game
Another knife to my back
Another goodbye,
Another ache
It’s the second time around
Once more, I’m wounded in this game
Covered in dirt
Covered in ashes
When will I walk away?
Learn from my fucking mistakes?
And darling, you took my heart
Ran away with it in your hands
Now I walk like a zombie
Humanoid void of feelings, void of care
I crave your blood
I crave your flesh
To feast in you, the sweetest revenge
Won’t trust again
I won’t, though I must
To live I must breathe
To live I must eat
Still, I don’t...
Another goodbye,
Another ache
It’s the second time around
Once more, I’m wounded in this game
Covered in dirt
Covered in ashes
When will I walk away?
Learn from my fucking mistakes?
And darling, you took my heart
Ran away with it in your hands
Now I walk like a zombie
Humanoid void of feelings, void of care
I crave your blood
I crave your flesh
To feast in you, the sweetest revenge
Won’t trust again
I won’t, though I must
To live I must breathe
To live I must eat
Still, I don’t...
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DARK POEM
Published
9th Oct 2012 2:35am
9th Oct 2012 2:35am
Doubts & Fears
Is God real?
Is God merciful?
If he is, then why am I this way?
Why do I wake up every morning wishing I hadn't?
All I ever feel is pain
All I ever want is death;
To sleep soundly, to never ever wake again
Is goodness real, or just another lie?
Is it something my mother told me just to keep me alive?
I long for answers
I long for truth
Still, knowing what I know, I'm certain I'll never get answers
I'm certain I'll never hear truth
People are too fearful;
Way too afraid of their own fucking shadows to speak their minds
Is God merciful?
If he is, then why am I this way?
Why do I wake up every morning wishing I hadn't?
All I ever feel is pain
All I ever want is death;
To sleep soundly, to never ever wake again
Is goodness real, or just another lie?
Is it something my mother told me just to keep me alive?
I long for answers
I long for truth
Still, knowing what I know, I'm certain I'll never get answers
I'm certain I'll never hear truth
People are too fearful;
Way too afraid of their own fucking shadows to speak their minds
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DARK POEM
Published
8th Oct 2012 2:42am
8th Oct 2012 2:42am
I Might As Well Die
I slip away when I close my eyes
I leave behind the world,
Embrace painless disembodiment
For a few hours, I am freedom unbound
I escape this prison some call body
Your world is hateful;
A cruel and violent place
I rather live in peaceful lands;
Places void of humanity
If I can't, oh, well
I might as well die
It's not like you care anyways
I leave behind the world,
Embrace painless disembodiment
For a few hours, I am freedom unbound
I escape this prison some call body
Your world is hateful;
A cruel and violent place
I rather live in peaceful lands;
Places void of humanity
If I can't, oh, well
I might as well die
It's not like you care anyways
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UPBEAT INSPIRATIONAL POEM
Published
21st Sep 2012 00:53am
21st Sep 2012 00:53am
Completion
I retreat
take back my words
Every thought i've thought is void
lacking any meaning now
And when you open your eyes,
you are surprised
you feel light
weightless, almost
then, you laugh at yourself
it was always there
standing right in front of you
Darling, move on
let go of your pain
it's only holding you back,
keeping you away
you need love
you need freedom
Locks are breaking
skin is being shed
we are drifting off to sleep,
changing while we faint
when we wake up, we'll be done growing...
take back my words
Every thought i've thought is void
lacking any meaning now
And when you open your eyes,
you are surprised
you feel light
weightless, almost
then, you laugh at yourself
it was always there
standing right in front of you
Darling, move on
let go of your pain
it's only holding you back,
keeping you away
you need love
you need freedom
Locks are breaking
skin is being shed
we are drifting off to sleep,
changing while we faint
when we wake up, we'll be done growing...
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DARK POEM
Published
16th Sep 2012 7:47pm
16th Sep 2012 7:47pm
Death is Everywhere
Death is an old lady, the one sitting at the end of the bus
You smile at her, she smiles back
You'd never know that with a wink, she'd have your head
Death is the boy you are crushing on
He winks at you, you wink back
You'd never know that with a kiss, he'd have your soul
You are your own Death
Every moment of your life to leads up to it,
To a horrible end
Natural or by your own hand doesn't matter,
You'd still be provoking it
Death is everywhere and everyone
It could be your bathroom, it could be your crush
It could be your...
You smile at her, she smiles back
You'd never know that with a wink, she'd have your head
Death is the boy you are crushing on
He winks at you, you wink back
You'd never know that with a kiss, he'd have your soul
You are your own Death
Every moment of your life to leads up to it,
To a horrible end
Natural or by your own hand doesn't matter,
You'd still be provoking it
Death is everywhere and everyone
It could be your bathroom, it could be your crush
It could be your...
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LOVE POEM
Published
11th Sep 2012 9:15pm
11th Sep 2012 9:15pm
Upside Down
A long time ago,
You held my heart in your hands
It was yours, and so was I
All I wanted was you, your love
Still, you couldn’t see
Darling, you took my light
You poisoned me
All I saw in myself was someone terrible,
Someone unworthy of anything
Now, I know better
I know what I am
Something so beautiful, you had to take away its glow
I wish you the best
I hope you never have to feel what I’ve felt
Hate
Bitterness
You turned me upside down, but trust me, I’m better now
I can walk and smile again
Never will...
You held my heart in your hands
It was yours, and so was I
All I wanted was you, your love
Still, you couldn’t see
Darling, you took my light
You poisoned me
All I saw in myself was someone terrible,
Someone unworthy of anything
Now, I know better
I know what I am
Something so beautiful, you had to take away its glow
I wish you the best
I hope you never have to feel what I’ve felt
Hate
Bitterness
You turned me upside down, but trust me, I’m better now
I can walk and smile again
Never will...
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SELF POEM
Published
11th Sep 2012 8:34pm
11th Sep 2012 8:34pm
Alive
I can't be alive
this doesn't feel like living at all
I'm nothing but remains,
what's left of something else
i wish i could change
go somewhere else, be free of this all
They think i'm happy
that i never suffer
It's funny, actually
i'm the opposite
i'm always weeping, always feeling somewhat broken
My cheeks are soaked in tears
My hands are longing for something to hold
My heart beats for love, but i know i'm getting none
How can i be alive, when i feel so dead inside?
this doesn't feel like living at all
I'm nothing but remains,
what's left of something else
i wish i could change
go somewhere else, be free of this all
They think i'm happy
that i never suffer
It's funny, actually
i'm the opposite
i'm always weeping, always feeling somewhat broken
My cheeks are soaked in tears
My hands are longing for something to hold
My heart beats for love, but i know i'm getting none
How can i be alive, when i feel so dead inside?
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SPIRITUAL POEM
Published
10th Sep 2012 00:13am
10th Sep 2012 00:13am
Misguided Angel
Changing minds
Cleansing hearts
That's what you promise, isn't it?
To rid me of my pain, of my madness
But what if I'm happy this way?
What if I enjoy being the buffoon of the show?
If I say no, what will you do?
Will you hurt me?
Will you say I'll burn in hell?
Answer my questions, I don't understand
How can you say I'll be safe, if I won't be mine?
You took my friend
Changed who she was
Now, she's nothing
All that's left of her is a shell
I don't even recognize her anymore
If I go with you, who will return?...
Cleansing hearts
That's what you promise, isn't it?
To rid me of my pain, of my madness
But what if I'm happy this way?
What if I enjoy being the buffoon of the show?
If I say no, what will you do?
Will you hurt me?
Will you say I'll burn in hell?
Answer my questions, I don't understand
How can you say I'll be safe, if I won't be mine?
You took my friend
Changed who she was
Now, she's nothing
All that's left of her is a shell
I don't even recognize her anymore
If I go with you, who will return?...
688 reads
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