Make you proud

Please lord help me
I'm singing this one for my seed
If you can find heart to forgive me
I'll find my heart to never leave
I've never been a role model
I did a lot of shitty things
And now I know better
Though I know how bad it sounds
I fell too many times
But you lifted me off the ground
I know my soul now
So I sing this one out loud
And hope that one day
Maybe I can make you proud

These burning tears fall
I'm writing this feeling small
I don't think you can forgive me
But I've been trying to give my all
I heard my name called
To a place I couldn't follow
Tried to drown myself in tears
It appears I couldn't swallow
I hear your pained cries
I used to tuck you in every night
And even when your mama couldn't
I'd tell you it would be alright
I saw a dad fail
In my mirror saw my hell
You saw the light leaving my eyes
Locked in my mind it was my cell
Like this is my tale
Something I never meant to be
But I love you in spite of me
So I'm begging your forgiveness
Please love me and set me free

Please my children love me
I'm singing this one for you my seed
If you can find heart to forgive me
I'll find my heart to never leave
I've never been a role model
I did a lot of shitty things
And now I know better
Though I know how bad it sounds
I fell too many times
But you lifted me off the ground
I know my soul now
So I sing this one out loud
And hope that one day
Maybe I can make you proud