Drift out of your mind

As I go deeper into this reclusive state
The more I meditate to stay sedated,
To get my mind elated and less frustrated.
Excessive thoughts got me feelin discombobulated,
I seem to gravitate towards introversion stayin alienated.
The mind can often drag you down, you've gotta evade the traps and stay elevated
Train yourself to not become aggravated.
Transform your perceptions and you can change your fate.
Release the guilt, the negativity and the hate,
Just drift out of your mind, meditate and let your soul elate.

I should take my own advice still I don't live by my rhymes
A message for me, something I should see but don't at times.
Time to open my eyes and see.

But I'm Acting anxious again which really begins to annoy me.
Can't stop these thoughts no more they're really beginning to irk me.
And all I do is puff smoke to invoke a certain woke state
And to forget that I'm broke, feelin like I'm about to choke on this weed smoke.

Sometimes I get so confused,
I Keep gettin the blues, feels like I stay trapped within this dream.
So lonely and lost, not sure how I should feel
Just confused should I cry or should I scream.

Stayin lost in deja vu, tryna change myself though it's hard to do
And I won't and I don't but I tried and I know that I failed but I can't
Just give up on myself.