Unfortunate Mishaps

My big brown eyes,
Filled with misery and pain.
They hold back my truth and show lies.
So no one will know and look at me with shame.

My soft smooth lips.
So pink and scarred.
From the pain I hold in,I bite and I nip
To keep me from screaming, its truly hard.

My legs stand so strong
But fall to weakness.
They may put off an attractiveness, tan and long.
But pants hide my intentional scars and freakiness.

My heart not just broken and tore.
But also holey and black.
It beats to love and yearns for nothing more.
Once it loves, the walls draw it back.

Me, a young girl, who matured too fast.
Wishes I could just go back.
Live another life and have a different past.
I just don't want to live, I'm a wreck.

My past haunts me.
I can't trust anyone, not even my mind.
Or let that loved one in, who means the world to me.
Because the spiritual walls are what I hide behind.

I don't know what to do.
I want to be happy.
But never hurt too.

I'm just..
I'm just an unfortunate mishap
That seemed to happen, from pure lust.