is this really me?!

I may just be sick?
If so, I need some help.
Or beat to death by a metal stick.

I WANT TO KILL!
I WANT TO CAUSE DEATH!
I even watch horror films, and learn the killer's skills.

When I get BEYOND being mad,
I want to kill that certain person.
I go as far as to HOW I'm going to, is that bad?!

Someone, PLEASE, help me.
I fear that I WILL slit someone's innocent throat.
And then that be the cause of my own killing spree.

Is this even normal?
To have SO much rage?
Maybe its just my horomones?

I have no clue...
It makes me sick to my stomach how demented I get.
But it makes me blood thirsty too.

Is this truly me?!
Or some phase I'm going through?
This just CAN'T be me.

It just CAN'T be...
Can it...?
If so, I don't wanna be me.