I'll Mind Of X (I'm Sick)

Maybe my brain doesn't work like yours does
Sitting in the darkness and all I heard was
You're a piece of shit why do you live
You just a nuisance your fucking worthless
Personality clash at its peak
All I need is a chance to breathe or an autopsy at least
Just to figure out whats going on in the inside
Outside I'm decaying fast and my souls taking a slow flight
To the ground trying to slow down the things that are around me
Every night is another attempt to write the feelings that are drowning
My brain is exploding like dynamite I try to write but when nothing comes to mind I just rewind
I try to write something that y'all can feel
But that wont happen since my shit is strange like Jigsaw's murder films
Shit I never sleep look at my eyes
By the time I wake up from deep thought the suns already saying bye
So kill me know or let me suffer in this hole
I was the lost human that claimed his individual self
Hurt by everybody else so am I asking you why do I keep living this hell?