my paradise

I've seen the beauty of the sun as it glanced through your eyes.
I've seen the best parts of your smile.
Even though I only held you for a few minutes in this life.
I still can't get passed the reason why?
You were not even old enough to be called young.
My life is turned upside down.
I wish it was the other way around.
I would have died in your place, I would have saved you any how.
My earth has turned to hell and I know paradise is not in the clouds.
My joy came the moment you were delivered into this world and placed in my arms.
You cried havoc but kept quiet when they placed you in my hands as if you knew who I was.
Was that your way of saying goodbye?
You were just a fleeting moment passing by.
A very short entire life.
The doctors said your heart failed and stopped.
They've cut you wide open and stitched you up, but still didn't help.
I prayed to god, to take me instead.
The only answer I got was silence.
The emptiness in the flat lines.
Showed no vital signs of life.
That's when life ripped you from my arms.
You never even got the chance to feel the depth and comfort of my love.
You never got the chance to know the joy you brought in life.
Pictures of dreams and plans for you flashed by.
Your life was two grains of sand in an hourglass
But their impact as they hit the ground and crack my heart,
And left me scarred for life.
My life turned upside down.
My earth turned to hell and I know paradise is not in the clouds.
The moment I found you was the moment I lost you.
I knew deep inside you were my paradise.