vodka letters

 
vodka is spoken so elegantly
each note slurred
in such a way it becomes foreign
 
the cocks cuss at me
while the three-ring circus played  
the devil was a woman
I think she was me
 
we all spoke vodka  
its harsh undertones
demanding sex on display
the world shift and we with it
 
lewd was the day
happy in her whoredom  
the men spoke fluent vodka
whispered secret umbrella sunrises
 
it dawned on me I was nude
as the cameras rolled
three bears came in
circus bears looking like men
 
the Russian tamers
were off for the night
busy taming me
 
on the circus train I spin
as Venko pet my pussy
I came instantly
he wanted to go again sadly I didn't
 
I was sixteen years old
the train left the station
a piece of me went home to Russia
 
Venko the bear tamer spoke vodka
in the end, I was a pretender who didn't