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Shards of Black
Dark and lovely can not exist simultaneously,
Its either you are dark or you are lovely!
For your "dark" is a shade of black that is dark.
Its where being born black bears the feeling of being a burden,
Cursed to never understand the true meaning of self worth,
"Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder"
So you pluck out those lying eyes with shards of self loathe and low self esteem
Only this time its in high volumes,
Pitying your own existence up until you cease to exist,
Invisible even to your own conscience,
Always feeling like you are never enough
You surrender your dark soul to the green eyed monster
Which persuades you that only when you add a little bit of light on your melanin soaked skin
will you become lovely
So you work out the math and apply the science
Colour 1,2,3 and 4,
A number for a different shade,
Working on your body like art,
With e aim of becoming a mosaic of elegance and excellence
With every pill u ingest and needle you pierce through your skin,
You tell yourself "beauty is pain"
Only to resurface as the ungodly product of lack of love and appreciation
No matter how light you become you are still you, drenched in darkness,
Your "dark" can never be synonymous with lovely,
Only with a little bit of light
Not to your skin but to your person
Can you truly become lovely,
Your "dark" is not a colour,
But a shade of black that is dark
And that's just not lovely.
Its either you are dark or you are lovely!
For your "dark" is a shade of black that is dark.
Its where being born black bears the feeling of being a burden,
Cursed to never understand the true meaning of self worth,
"Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder"
So you pluck out those lying eyes with shards of self loathe and low self esteem
Only this time its in high volumes,
Pitying your own existence up until you cease to exist,
Invisible even to your own conscience,
Always feeling like you are never enough
You surrender your dark soul to the green eyed monster
Which persuades you that only when you add a little bit of light on your melanin soaked skin
will you become lovely
So you work out the math and apply the science
Colour 1,2,3 and 4,
A number for a different shade,
Working on your body like art,
With e aim of becoming a mosaic of elegance and excellence
With every pill u ingest and needle you pierce through your skin,
You tell yourself "beauty is pain"
Only to resurface as the ungodly product of lack of love and appreciation
No matter how light you become you are still you, drenched in darkness,
Your "dark" can never be synonymous with lovely,
Only with a little bit of light
Not to your skin but to your person
Can you truly become lovely,
Your "dark" is not a colour,
But a shade of black that is dark
And that's just not lovely.
Published 26th Aug 2018
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26th Aug 2018 9:40pm
I love black. I used to wear it exclusively. I know of course what you are talking about...skin color and the stuff that goes with it. There is that sad reality and I wonder if unconciously it has been linked to the idea of "dark" as "evil"....like Lillith in the bible. I am not even religious, but this just came to mind.
Most of it is brainwash....for those who consider themselves superior, that believe in dark skinned people are less, it creates a scapegoat for all their anger and insecurities. Somebody to dump on. For the dark skinned people it becomes a self defeating program, as they have internalized the attacks about their self worth. And still there is the game that's rigged, not just for the "dark" ones, but for the poor in general, who can never unite as long as they make skin color an issue.
Good poem...makes one think about it once again
Most of it is brainwash....for those who consider themselves superior, that believe in dark skinned people are less, it creates a scapegoat for all their anger and insecurities. Somebody to dump on. For the dark skinned people it becomes a self defeating program, as they have internalized the attacks about their self worth. And still there is the game that's rigged, not just for the "dark" ones, but for the poor in general, who can never unite as long as they make skin color an issue.
Good poem...makes one think about it once again
26th Aug 2018 9:50pm
Thank you so much..so generally where I come from there is this discriminatory yellowborn trend of what is called colorism.its where for one to be considered beautiful they HV to be light skinned and that has seen beautiful changing their natural skin color completely..don't get me wrong I HV no problem with make up and all but I hate it when it becomes soneones source of confidence and u feel you have to change yourself just so shallow men can objectify and flatter you with a plethora of compliments which lack sincerity but emanate from an irrationalirrational and primitive belief that beauty is defined by skin colour..when in fact beauty is seen in diversity,confidence and originality..
Thank you for taking time to read this long piece,you are a delight
Thank you for taking time to read this long piece,you are a delight
1st Sep 2018 6:59am
Too many people I have know have suffered at the hands of so-called social norms and media-fueled expectations. It's wonderful and a little thrilling to read an honest piece from the heart of someone on the emotional frontlines, I think it opens doors for others; hopefully the writing of it did the same for you. I'll definitely be reading more of your work.
1st Sep 2018 7:06am
True this whole norm of fitting in is the doom for many..thank you for taking interest will follow up on your works too
