SOME THING HERE  (I) (5-23-03, remote end of East Beach,  Galveston Island, Texas)

 
    
lying here    
in the sun    
on this islolated    
beach    
fine  white sand    
between my  
toes  
blue  green    
liquid horizon line  
bluer sky    
high  
above it all
timelessly suspended
in such  
elevated awe
at the animated
golden orchestration
of this  
still unfolding
sun filled  
sun born day
yes  yes
this is all    
i need today    
it took      
a lot    
of energy    
and motion    
to bring me      
to this place    
to seek      
and find    
such peace    
and stillness    
in its fullness    
with the      
high strung    
wound up world    
now shrunken    
and fallen away    
somewhere unseen    
far beyond me    
its presently      
faded ghost    
of all that      
still holds    
and binds me    
now temporarily    
rendered benign    
lies seven      
miles away    
like a stubbornly    
persistent scab    
still desperately      
clinging      
to its centuries      
old      
historical wound    
upon the    
sinking    
western landscape    
its usual      
distantly visible    
low  gray silhouette    
now blessedly    
blurred    
from my sight    
by the blinding    
golden  white glare    
of our now     
quickly descending    
central sun    
yet still    
i came here    
to get my    
fix    
to get my    
fill    
of the collective    
healing essence    
of this natural    
primal  wild    
wind blown    
sea tossed place    
this long battered    
haggard      
abused  polluted    
yet still resilient    
much like  
my own  
living  kindred  
physical landscapes    
transcendent souls
ethereal spirits
divinely  
interconnected  
inseperably  
intertwined  
heightened collusion
wherein both    
our presently  
still living essences  
so effortlessly  
come together here  
in silent harmony    
to nurture    
strengthen    
and sustain    
our boundless relevance    
of being    
and place  
though also seemingly      
feeling  
at times    
increasingly lost    
in the    
ever densening    
chaos    
of manmade madness    
within the    
largely disconnected    
disrespected    
so tragically  
forgotten    
once greater    
natural    
harmoniously interwoven    
truly enlightened    
scheme    
of things    
called and summoned
here strongly    
today    
by my  
intuitive guts  
screaming instincts  
deepest    
inner clarion call    
unquestioningly  
trusting  
unhesitant heeding  
my guiding    
higher    
spirits    
insistant free will    
i felt  
i listened  
i came    
yet something    
even deeper    
inside me    
beyond the mere    
physical force    
of my open      
free heart alone    
answered to some    
higher presences    
persistent beckoning
call  
for both my      
soul      
and physical being    
to come here    
today  
to surrender  
let go      
and become    
a more reawakened  
reanimated  
reintegrated  
integral part    
of something    
much larger  
than the egoically  
self limited  
all    
that ive    
so long been    
conditioned by  
over the course  
of this    
compassless journey  
of my  
entire lifetime    
thus far  
im still on
to so falsely  
so blindly  
believe    
i once was  
yet no longer  
believe    
i am  
yes    
i came here  
today  
to detach  
and more thoroughly  
escape  
to seek out  
and find  
as much natural  
prolonged  
precious  healing  
respite  
as i can
and as far  
away  
as i    
could possibly get  
from the  
maddening  
seemingly    
neverending    
stressfully depleting    
temporal stuff    
relentlessly  
floodiing  
and drowning  
our too long  
suffering earth  
and the    
ever increasingly  
backsliding  
deteriorating  
consciousness of man  
thus as far  
away  
as i can  
from the      
way too  
high strung    
overly  
wound up    
world    
which cannibalizes    
the very heart    
and spirit    
of true life    
and living away    
more and more    
each month    
each year    
each day    
whether  
you      
consciously    
allow it  
or not    
the presently    
faded ghosts    
of all that    
which still    
stubbornly holds    
and binds me    
to that    
worldwide  
malignant  
paradigmal lie  
which i    
realize  
ive only locally  
and temporarily  
succeeded  
in leaving behind    
me here  
the long broken
heart
of its heinous  
hungry  
howling ghost  
only visually  
shrunken    
faintly faded  
and momentarily  
fallen away    
somewhere unseen    
just far enough      
beyond me    
to savor    
this    
only short lived    
fleeting    
ephemeral peace  
this endangered  
still special  
place  
where ive come    
out here      
alone    
lying in      
the sun    
on this    
isloated beach    
fine  white sand    
between    
my toes    
blue  green    
liquid horizon line    
bluer sky    
high    
above it all    
yes      
this is all    
i needed today    
now this is      
what    
ive got    
deeply saturated    
in my willing      
conscious    
full surrender      
into the elemental    
peripheral      
cosmic flow    
of this ancient    
restorative dance    
sufficiently assimilated    
alas reattuned    
sufficiently restored    
again    
now i am    
more vibrantly    
feeling      
the vibrational      
energy and essence    
of being    
more fully    
plugged back in    
to the vital    
greater truth    
of this silent    
sacred  living art    
of simply being    
present here    
in the conscious    
constant flow    
of now    
with all my    
senses widely opened    
to being freely    
receptive    
to receiving    
and rejoicing in    
the pureness    
of each wondrous    
passing moment    
allowing in    
more natural feeling    
to free me    
into feeling more    
the fullness    
of this heightened    
awareness    
newly reliberated    
unfettered    
released    
unbound    
into an even    
higher  higher    
highest knowing    
in desperate hopes  
of increasingly    
becoming    
ever more    
radiantly    
clear