Relapse

58 days clean
Then came self sabotage

The wave I road
As 5 pills went down my throat

Justifications, yeah I had plenty
But let's be real, I'm just an addict

Fuck boys gonna fuck

Hit a meeting in the pm to share
I don't need to tell you i didn't want to go

I can't give up, now or ever.. I want this so bad
But old habits die hard
hopefully they don't take me with them

I want sleep, but even that won't change the past
Tomorrow is a new day

I am grateful for that.