Myself....

I don't have hate for other people really,
It's more of a dislike kinda thing.
Although, I hate myself.
The one person I hate, is the one I have to live with everyday.
It's strange, I don't even understand myself.
I don't know why I get so jealous.
I don't know why I get upset or angry I just do,
And I can't help it.
Which is the part I hate the most.
I look at myself in the mirror,
Eye's filled with tears, blood shot and bright green.
I talk to myself,
Yeah, I talk to myself...
I tell myself to look down at my chest,
To wake up to the world.
I tell myself I'm disgusting, gross..
I hate my body, I even think I'm ugly majority of the time.
And I can't be comfortable in my own body.
Never been able to be,
I make my girlfriend cry, constantly..
I cry, constantly..
I hurt her, I hurt me...
My fault, I'm nothing..
I don't think I'll ever change,
No one can really put up with me long enough..
I get to much for them, I just learn to ignore myself sometimes...
Although others can't...
I hate living with the one person I hate..
Myself...
If there is a way to make this a little better, please help me...
I cause myself more pain than anyone ever could.


[i]Dealing with myself everyday,
Is a struggle.[i]