Disappointment no longer hurt

‼️Disappointments no longer hurt

The water is above sea level it’s at my neck
It feels like I’m Drowning
It’s one after another just -NUMb-
pushed away in so many directions
I’m trying to get help no one sees my signal
Looking from a distance head above water
My swift attempts is only making me tired this sea water is choppy
throwing out life lines no one see
beneath the surface
My ankles are  Anchored  
chained and balled
Pain within pain
So much attachment  have to keep Going this is no way to live.............
Can’t give up
The constant suppression of pain constant disrespectfulness wont let them win
Learning how to navigate like a real Nautica no anchors just free moving
Sea 🌊 it all at this level (laugh)
My  binoculars view spectacular
Location can’t report specialized visibility
They think it’s a joke this ain’t time to play
Made so many changes with inn
When they are around they wanna down play me make me look like crap to others.
Won’t allow them to bring out who they use to know
I’m still me every time I come around
Fake as smiles the constant lying
To bring something nasty out of me
Wont allow it dnt have time
Tired had enough