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Free Me
I've been in prison within myself.
I'm trapped in these four walls.
As I'm shackled down gasping for air, my throat starts to close up and my heart pounds while I want to break free.
I become claustrophobic and start to go insane.
I scream for somebody to hear me, I beg and plea then finally pray but it's so sound proof not even God could hear me.
My cries for help suddenly fade away as I've given up.
I given up on my ambition,
I given up on my love,
I given up on my faith,
Most of all myself.
I let my pain become the ruler of my life,
As it owned me it controlled me while it made me its slave.
Whipping my back and demanding me to never ever open myself up and love again.
I shed so many tears, but my trail of tears won't ever stop me from rising like a Phoenix from the ashes or stinging back like a king scorpion in a fight.
I can't see the light in this tunnel will somebody guide me there?;
Feeling out of my element, trying to figure out where the hell I went,
Venting inside because I prefer to stay silent on the outside and keep it all to myself in the meantime I'm screaming in my mind for heaven to send me a guardian angel that can protect me and love me.
Yet I have to fight my own demons and keep myself afloat on a sinking boat that's on it's way to the bottom of the ocean. Now it's just me, in the dark once again barely breathing as I'm dying out will I give in and let myself go and descend or can I make it another day here?.
I'm fear,
I'm in agony,
I'm in pain,
I'm in the same damn cycle that runs over and over and over again.
Make it stop, please won't you help me?;
Show me,
guide me,
hold me,
free me.
I'm trapped in these four walls.
As I'm shackled down gasping for air, my throat starts to close up and my heart pounds while I want to break free.
I become claustrophobic and start to go insane.
I scream for somebody to hear me, I beg and plea then finally pray but it's so sound proof not even God could hear me.
My cries for help suddenly fade away as I've given up.
I given up on my ambition,
I given up on my love,
I given up on my faith,
Most of all myself.
I let my pain become the ruler of my life,
As it owned me it controlled me while it made me its slave.
Whipping my back and demanding me to never ever open myself up and love again.
I shed so many tears, but my trail of tears won't ever stop me from rising like a Phoenix from the ashes or stinging back like a king scorpion in a fight.
I can't see the light in this tunnel will somebody guide me there?;
Feeling out of my element, trying to figure out where the hell I went,
Venting inside because I prefer to stay silent on the outside and keep it all to myself in the meantime I'm screaming in my mind for heaven to send me a guardian angel that can protect me and love me.
Yet I have to fight my own demons and keep myself afloat on a sinking boat that's on it's way to the bottom of the ocean. Now it's just me, in the dark once again barely breathing as I'm dying out will I give in and let myself go and descend or can I make it another day here?.
I'm fear,
I'm in agony,
I'm in pain,
I'm in the same damn cycle that runs over and over and over again.
Make it stop, please won't you help me?;
Show me,
guide me,
hold me,
free me.
Published 29th May 2018
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29th May 2018 5:30am
29th May 2018 2:22pm
Thanks I've been going through a lot lately and this poem is about butterflying your way through it as you rebirth from the cocoon and wish to become a beautiful butterfly again.
Meanwhile the obstacles in my life will always be hard to ignore, but will have to be part of the journey.
Thanks for reading
Meanwhile the obstacles in my life will always be hard to ignore, but will have to be part of the journey.
Thanks for reading
29th May 2018 6:04pm
If I owned the key I'd willingly set you free
Free from the misery that's relatable to me
Weight from your pain and all of your disdain
Would be lifted with a crane out of your brain
Free from the misery that's relatable to me
Weight from your pain and all of your disdain
Would be lifted with a crane out of your brain
29th May 2018 7:21pm
I'm honestly holding back the tears since I love how you get how I feel, thank you so much Damon.
It's truly been rough both relationship wise and in general life wise as I try to piece every part of me and see if everything will eventually make sense again and maybe in the end it might not like it used to but I guess that's whole part of growing and learning from the people you have around you and you choose to let into your life
It's truly been rough both relationship wise and in general life wise as I try to piece every part of me and see if everything will eventually make sense again and maybe in the end it might not like it used to but I guess that's whole part of growing and learning from the people you have around you and you choose to let into your life
29th May 2018 11:50pm
Stay strong Rocky. Life definitely is hard but you'll persevere in the end. I've been hurt/betrayed by the closet ones to me including the one who bore me. I'm still standing and so shall you.
