missing the memories

oh how I miss running my fingers through your thick, black, curly hair.
I miss the warmth of the oversized black hoodie you gave me when it was pouring rain.
I miss the way you'd look at me as if I were the only girl you could see.
I miss the feeling of your hands playfully touching me as I giggled and pushed you away.
I miss the way you'd tease me with your seductive dark eyes across the room.
I miss when you would pull me close to you so that I wouldn't leave your presence, that was a feeling I loved the most.
I miss how you'd flirtatiously bite your lip and wink at me just to watch me squirm in my seat.
I miss looking up at you only to see you already staring at me.
I miss our late night conversations that always seemed to last for an eternity.
i miss you braiding my hair whenever you got bored in class
I miss the sweet sound of your voice when you asked me if I was okay.
I miss listening to you make fun of the boy that broke my spirit.
I miss the way you'd make silly faces at me until I was laughing so hard that I looked like a tomato.
I miss writing on your arm in sharpie, claiming you to be mine.
I miss the confidence that you had in your voice whenever we would speak.
I miss how you would put your hand on mine then place it on your sweaty bicep after your football practice just so you could prove how muscular you were.
I miss you telling me stories about your complicated life that you knew could relate to mine.
but,
I dont miss how you lied to me.  
I dont miss the awful way you took advantage of my trust for you.
I dont miss you humiliating me, thus ruining my already crappy reputation.  
I dont miss you throwing our friendship away as if it was nothing.  
I dont miss how you acted as if i didnt exist, like we were never even friends.
I dont miss losing the respect of my peers just because of the fucked up rumors that you started.
I dont miss the way you made people hate me because of something that happened between us.
I dont miss hearing you laugh at my pain and mock my sorrows.  
I dont miss you leading me on just for the fun of it then breaking my heart.
I certainly dont miss your indescribable cruel soul.
I dont miss you...
but
I sure as hell do miss the unforgettably great times we shared together.
I need to move past this.
It's time.
you're not worth my thoughts nor tears.
so long old friend.
I release you.