Tears of regret

When we met I was in love with another    
Clearly damaged trying to share a married man    
Drenching your shirt for months crying over the brokenness    
It was dumb of me to think he would leave behind    
The love of his life ,,, for sexual bliss      
     
After months of crying finally my eye lifted    
The sun was out and life was perfect    
There! You stood like my knight in shining armor      
Metal damaged by constantly frights, long lonely nights, and senseless fights      
I push ,,u pulled      
Not giving up on the girl who lived the broken life    
     
Finally,, both of us on the same navigation    
On a long road of recovery    
Happily we married and planted seeds of eternity      
Our baby girl was born with mommies beautiful eyes and daddies will to fight    
     
But,,,,,      
     
Months of arguing and miscommunication before your life    
We fought ,,, daily      
Regardless of the baby inside      
Throwing things against the wall ,,, yelling out to terminate the papers      
We moved so fast that ,,, I didn't think      
U would never trusted me      
Deep down I will always be damaged good longing for someone attention  
U hated me for not choosing you during the storm and rain    
Funny tho you married me      
Questioning now whether the ring was for me    
Did you get down on one knee to prove to him or me ?    
U look at me with disguise daily    
Refusing to touch my gentle breast      
Using my sexual needs to punish me    
     
So once again drowning in the rain      
But this time my offspring  must fulfill my emptiness      
Now i drop tears on her caramel legs instead of my husband's chest      
     
fighting these tears of regret