Gaping holes

I tried to untangle you from my soul,
but your roots are deep.
The constant nagging and aching in
my chest does not want to leave

Do you know what it feels like to drown?

It feels like a hug
the one that compresses your chest
it makes it difficult to breathe
the only feeling that an empty soul would feel like

I eventually got you out

BUT

You left big gaping holes .
You left me with scars
which only made it harder for me to love

You left bruises on my heart
bigger than the ones around my neck

Then He came
The peace
The gentle touch
with no expectations

Chaos met structure
in the most beautiful way