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why am i always waiting
waiting, waiting, waiting, is this a waiting game
am i supposed to be laughing
i'm not amused, i just want more, more from life
whats the problem here, why am i always waiting
waiting for friends to see , waiting for a boyfriend
oh , but hang on i word this wrong
the skills for life would be a better word
you know, confidence, capability
how do people make a life for themselves
oh, of course, they can make a life for themselves
they feel capable, ok for them
they have the capability , some don't
it seems that the so called '' capable '' ones
they are the ones with all the friends to see
they are the ones with the boyfriends, girlfriends
jobs, flats, ability to step onto a train
some can't , sometimes i think the mere thought
makes me nervous, let alone the action
not that i bother to try , just don't feel capable
why would i want to step onto a train
so i can be filled with anxiety throughout the whole journey
why would i want to go into a social situation
so i can nearly cry ?
it's funny how the people who need things the most
they are the ones who miss out
all those capable, normal normal people
with their normal minds and their normal feelings
they can just act without even thinking
its like nothing bothers them, and everything comes with ease
sigh , its so unfair, you miss out
because you are not capable, you are different
you struggle in your mind
you have not got the capabilities to achieve your wishes
so you lose, you miss out , you cry
even tho you cry already , you cry even more
funny that, how those who need things the most
they are the ones who still miss out
the normal people have nothing to moan about
with their normal minds
and their groups of friends
their happy relationships and their ease in life
i'm not sure i understand
maybe i've never been '' normal ''
maybe missing out all the time is fair ?
or maybe i've never been capable enough
maybe its ok to always miss out
even tho you never asked for problems
you lose out anyway
and you have to cry even more
am i supposed to be laughing
i'm not amused, i just want more, more from life
whats the problem here, why am i always waiting
waiting for friends to see , waiting for a boyfriend
oh , but hang on i word this wrong
the skills for life would be a better word
you know, confidence, capability
how do people make a life for themselves
oh, of course, they can make a life for themselves
they feel capable, ok for them
they have the capability , some don't
it seems that the so called '' capable '' ones
they are the ones with all the friends to see
they are the ones with the boyfriends, girlfriends
jobs, flats, ability to step onto a train
some can't , sometimes i think the mere thought
makes me nervous, let alone the action
not that i bother to try , just don't feel capable
why would i want to step onto a train
so i can be filled with anxiety throughout the whole journey
why would i want to go into a social situation
so i can nearly cry ?
it's funny how the people who need things the most
they are the ones who miss out
all those capable, normal normal people
with their normal minds and their normal feelings
they can just act without even thinking
its like nothing bothers them, and everything comes with ease
sigh , its so unfair, you miss out
because you are not capable, you are different
you struggle in your mind
you have not got the capabilities to achieve your wishes
so you lose, you miss out , you cry
even tho you cry already , you cry even more
funny that, how those who need things the most
they are the ones who still miss out
the normal people have nothing to moan about
with their normal minds
and their groups of friends
their happy relationships and their ease in life
i'm not sure i understand
maybe i've never been '' normal ''
maybe missing out all the time is fair ?
or maybe i've never been capable enough
maybe its ok to always miss out
even tho you never asked for problems
you lose out anyway
and you have to cry even more
Published 27th Mar 2018
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27th Mar 2018 1:54pm
I hear you Daffodil it can be a struggle that’s for sure and your ink here says it clearly loved it.
Epic 😊
Epic 😊
27th Mar 2018 8:53pm
thankyou epic. it certainly feels painful to always be missing out when others are living their lives.
27th Mar 2018 9:07pm
27th Mar 2018 4:44pm
You are such a sweet and lovely person my friend. How can I let you know you are loved by me and many other people? Your words are very beautiful and sincere. I love them very much.
much love
RoseJasmine
much love
RoseJasmine
27th Mar 2018 9:01pm
thankyou rose for your kind words :-) i can get very upset and frustrated with my life.
28th Mar 2018 11:40am
28th Mar 2018 1:17pm
hi roger, thankyou for reading and commenting. yes, it's sad isn't it ..when we seem to be waiting and waiting for that which we crave!
Anonymous
29th Mar 2018 7:09am
'you are different
you struggle in your mind '
i know this all too well
this is a very deep and impactful write..
you struggle in your mind '
i know this all too well
this is a very deep and impactful write..
Anonymous
- Edited 28th Dec 2018 6:48pm
12th Apr 2018 10:00pm
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19th Apr 2018 6:15pm
It's a great poem. You divided people into two groups; those who think and write, and those who act and live. You are from the first group. If you want to be from the second, you have to change your life altogether.
Anonymous
- Edited 7th Sep 2022 7:45pm
17th May 2018 4:38pm
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19th May 2018 5:14pm
"jobs, flats, ability to step onto a train"
Anxiety impedes even basic sdaily activities.
Normality is a blessing, but sometimes it's better to have things wrong with you. Anxiety is caution. Depression brings emotion. And you bring light to those around you, even if they're blind to it. Do not forget your own worth. Don't.
