without leaves

blow me over when im already fallen
knock me over when im already bruised
treat me like im something then like im nothing
blow me over and forget me im already fallen

like a tiny insignificant flower she cries
like a invisible cloud she is forgotten
like a tree i want some more leaves
but when they are received they are stripped away

wanting to grab onto and have some golden stardust
wanting to believe that i am visible like a rose
yet sometimes feeling like a dark worthless soul
so tired of this loneliness and hurt from friends

i climb up a ladder and i want to get further
i climb up a mountain and i fall one more time
any extra pain is unwelcome yet it arrives
the pain in me is like a ocean i don't need more