I am new

I woke up in his arms
Relief washing over me there’s no alarm
He is home where I am secure
Put together where I don’t feel obscure

Today I am new

Isolated from a world untrue
Cravings send waves up my body
Crashing them down I look shoddy

Reiterating I am new in my head all the while
Thinking I can fight this battle in denial
The truth comes out when they see me trembling
What is freedom with bills piling

Today I am new

Today I will forget all my problems, focus on you
Thoughts mimicking the deep grunt of your laugh
Imagining his dimples the way his body cracks
Calm warming my blood no longer sludge today
No more denial he makes me strong enough to battle my day