2.16.10

Today marks 8 years since you have left. I wish that when i say 'left' that it implies you just moved away and that there was a chance that we could see you again, but no.
There are many people feeling the weight of your loss, myself included, but it is not all sadness. I am happy that you are not suffering. You were to sweet for the crule world around you. You turned to the harshest of coping mechanisms to mask the pain you are feeling inside. What you did was not right, but I cannot just blame you anymore. You surround yourself with people who were the same as you who had the same "needs".
I am one of the lucky ones.
I saw through clear eyes,first hand : your weakness ,your sorrow, the longing for someone to understand and love you.
To me you were many things. A friend, a savior, my first true and real love.
I am grateful, for all that you taught me.
I am grateful for everything you have shown me.
I'm grateful that you trusted me enough to share the absolute Darkness of your soul.
I am sad that I could not save you.
I am sad that before the end you pushed me away in an attempt to spare me.
You are very selfish to think that no one would care.

Did you know that your brother found you? Maybe an hour after you took your last breath... did you know that after the 9-1-1 call I was the next one contacted?
He as followed the same road you did, and has unsuccessfully tried to end his life on multiple occasions. You have left a lasting impression on multiple lives. You wont be forgotten