Civilized Stage

 
elected  
by landslide                
this surgery of mine                
is not cosmetic                
quite the contrary                
its absolutely                
de-constructive                
                
compelled to quell                
psychological pain                
its not enough                
dis-connecting brain                
this precipitous            
fall from Grace                
takes up valuable space                
my biological footprint                
and consumption rate                
require resources                
better waged                
on potential GREAT....                
nourishment for youth                
with better odds                  
achieving                
an acceptable fate                
                
this unique procedure                  
first of its kind                
perhaps is the legacy                  
I'll leave behind                
calculated sacrifice                
from my beautiful mind                
                
I intend to be conscious                  
at grand finale                
a poor man's Martyr                
I need anaesthetist's aide          
a full epidural                
while real-time    
reduced              
to biological stain                
                
let me explain:                
                
my scheme is implosion                
similar to    
great buildings                
brought down                  
before they decay                
to points of                
threatening erosion                
                
the Devil is in the details                
this surgery entails                
numerous incisions                
in outlying skin                
through hard bone drill                
strategic points                  
in my limbs                
M80s inserted                  
perfectly calibrated                
to bring me down                  
with the least                
real estate wasted                
                
explosives in place                
I stand and face                
environmental activists                
politiCons, scientists                
voyeur audience                  
fully aware            
far ranging    
implications                
result from  
successful annihilation                
                
detonator under finger                
doc presses plunger                
my first movement                
slightly spastic                
at initial micro-ignition                
of explosives plastic                
but soon                  
outward motion settles                
as skeletal foundation                
is shattered                
in carefully measured levels                
                
practioners delight                
as every mini-stick                
in kid dyn-o-mite                  
properly ignites                
broken bone and molten flesh                
begin controlled slide                
body implodes                  
into slush puddle concise              
not unlike      
Wicked Witch demise                                
I'm wide awake                               
for each irreparable break    
painlessly delight               
          
spine detached            
sternum cracks            
skull over-packed                
through shoulders crash            
shattered rib-cage  
total collapse                     
                
my soul floats above                
this most civilized stage                
last step                
is to set                  
heap of remains                
aflame                
I'm honored                
having played                
on team humanity                
in our futile game