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Confinement
paralyzed
by Borderline
Personality Disorder
quiet
and confined
carving creations
out of darkness
specified dynamics
domination
deviates intention
delineates compulsion
crying
uncontrolled emotions
curling up inside
only folded
like little pieces
of paper
valiant in nature
but suppressed
hiding...
I am the darkness
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Re. Confinement
8th Feb 2018 3:54am
I disagree - for me - you are the light always, even when you are in the dark :-))))
Love and huge hugs <3 <3
Love and huge hugs <3 <3
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Thank you for always being such a support. You always know the right thing to say to turn my perspective around =)
Re. Confinement
8th Feb 2018 6:27am
Some people I love suffer with BPD <3 I have a lot of respect for your strength and perseverance. Also for your beautiful words.
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Re: Re. Confinement
10th Feb 2018 11:17am
I've never knowingly met anyone else with BPD, but it sounds like you know the type. Thank you for your support sister, it is greatly cherished <3
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10th Feb 2018 7:06pm
Yes! A few actually. It varies a LOT, it's too much to get into. I know (or at least heavily suspect that I know) 4. Three are lovely people, but one has other underlying issues that are malignant. Most of the time BPD sufferers are highly intelligent (often creative) and well meaning, and I get that from you my dear <3
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Your empathy greatly warms my heart AtoMik, to feel so understand by you means more than I could express <3 I am the ‘quiet’ type of BPD, meaning I turn everything inwards. The ‘traditional’ type of BPD can be more obvious to others as they often lash out at others.
The stigma surrounding mental illness has made it difficult for me to accept and openly admit that I suffer from this condition. I knew I had BPD 15 years ago but over the years I let go of labels and basically forgot about the diagnosis, though I still suffered. Having an abusive ex husband only made things worse. Having recently left him, it has become obvious that I need to come out of the darkness and seek treatment if I’m ever to find happiness. The hardest part is that I can see the Light, out there at the edge of my fingertips.
The acceptance and support of this community has done so much for me in finally making positive progress down this journey. I would be lost without you all <3
The stigma surrounding mental illness has made it difficult for me to accept and openly admit that I suffer from this condition. I knew I had BPD 15 years ago but over the years I let go of labels and basically forgot about the diagnosis, though I still suffered. Having an abusive ex husband only made things worse. Having recently left him, it has become obvious that I need to come out of the darkness and seek treatment if I’m ever to find happiness. The hardest part is that I can see the Light, out there at the edge of my fingertips.
The acceptance and support of this community has done so much for me in finally making positive progress down this journey. I would be lost without you all <3
Re. Confinement
9th Feb 2018 2:34am
A star can only sparkle in the dark, Gem. You can't see the picture when you're in it; you only see the dark around it, so believe you're it as well.
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Re: Re. Confinement
10th Feb 2018 11:20am
Such an inspiring thing to say Ahavati, my heart swells at your wise words here <3 Your support always raises my spirits, thank you greatly sister =)
Re. Confinement
9th Feb 2018 12:49pm
I know people with bpd, and I feel this would sum up their frustrations perfectly. Nice work :)
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10th Feb 2018 11:21am
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9th Feb 2018 12:51pm
I know people with bpd and I feel this would sum up their frustrations perfectly. Nice work :)
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Re. Confinement
8th Jun 2018 9:14am
sorry you feel this way ...i too have mental health issues i deal with dissociation and i sometimes have emotional flashbacks, i have been through a lot of trauma . sorry to hear of your pain , its not fair , i think everyone reacts differently to how they feel
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13th Sep 2018 11:14pm
What you describe sounds similar to what I experience from time to time. My heart goes out to you poetess! Everyone does indeed react differently to their circumstances, I find poetry an ever-helpful creative outlet.
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