Broken

tonight I slept through the night with not one thought of you  
I walked around all day with a smile on my face and greeted everyone with a hello  
I checked my phone with no subconscious thought of hoping it was you.  
Your face no longer burned into my memory.  
Hearing your name no longer sent chills up my spine and butterflies in my stomach.  
I no longer yearned for the tone of your voice.
I no longer needed your laughter or your smile to get me through the day.
I find so much relief in that feeling.
You are now just a memory tucked in the corner of my mind never to be picked up again.
 
It was a ritual for me to be woken up in the middle of the night by dreams of you  
You mocked my peace like Lucifer mocked the holy hour. The thought of you haunted me and you didn't even realize it.  
With tears in my eyes I laid in bed while I felt around for my phone on the night stand.  
I stare at the blank screen hoping to see your name one more time.  
My heart filled with agonizing pain, just wanting you to love me the way that I love you would cause me to do this ten more times before falling back to sleep, only to be woken up minutes later by my screeching alarm.  
Days seemed longer  
Weekends seemed pointless for me, sitting in bed all day binge watching pathetic romance movies and listening to sad music all day drowning my sadness in sweets and food.  
 
I finally broken free myself of your weight no longer being the damsel in distress.