A Good Cry

I might feel better if I just cried
And not a dainty---tissues catching neat little tears---that doesn't smear your eyeliner that you worked so hard to perfect--- like the smile you plastered on
No, I need to sob
Let my body quiver and shake
Lose my breath until I am gasping out my frustrations
I need to cry until words fail me
Until there is only Me and My Pride
Starting at each other
Until I can truly ask myself Are You Done
And I need to cry until the answer is yes
Until I can crawl out
 of this dark dismal hole I've fallen into
Where the walls seem to be made
Of all my failures
And all of my unfulfilled wishes
Are all that echo back to me
I need to cry until I find the light hearted
Little girl I used to be
She has been lost for too long