Catch Myself

I like you more than I know I should.
Maybe it comes from my deep longing to be desired, as if I've never aquired that sort of feeling or inquired why I feel this feeling at all.

But its something

And we all fall every now and then but this pattern is becoming evident.
How every third step I trip again and how every time I fall in love I'm also falling out of love.
When I take that fact and do the math, I cancel out love to see past it and notice all I ever do is fall..
And call me crazy but in this mindset when I start to get lonely the only place I want to fall is right into your arms.

Because you're enough.

But I must have forgotten who I am.
Because anyone who is enough to me is only as much as I let them on to be until they arent that at all.

And then I fall.

Looking into the eyes of another I fall in love again.
In my selfish pursuit of happiness I choose to mark my path so I dont get lost.
But not on the road and not on the rocks.
I mark where Ive been on the hearts of others, leaving a violent trail in the wake of my tears mixed with others heartache.

So for now ill just fall alone, and when I do maybe I'll learn to finally catch myself

-ILL